death..its bigger than a 5 letter word

i went to a an antim samskar yesterday.
it was actually someone iknew.
someone i had seen in flesh and bones.
and when u see the same person's body getting charred in the fire it actually makes a cork open.
a cork which blocked ur head.
in the light of which everything profit, loss, mating, style fashion almost everything seems pale.
but one thing still stands out.
i.e the reason of ur existence.
and that is explained by only one man till date.
i.e steve jobs
don't laugh now...
i am not one of the other lunatics who seem to be impressed way to much by his cute keynote presentations...no

this man alone actually started digging what his existence meant and in course of his search he tried everything
religion, love, drugs etc.
exactly like buddha who was also perturbed by the reason of his existence.
and steve then finally figured it out...

"i am here to create a dent in the universe"
more broadly which meant that ur life should make a difference, it should take the whole civillization to new standard,

my present in something like the "rime of the ancient mariner"

all the world has a dead albetross hung around their neck...
more simply

we are following dead culture , dead god...
for e.g.
in all engineering degree courses in india we study the same subjects i.e physics, mathematics, mechanics, manufaturing processes in the first year.
consider a student of software engineering

software engineering, you would know if you have ever noticed so much, is very different from any other branch of engineering....for e.g. u can't make a bridge and then use it to rectify it but software testing is a core principle of software engineering.

why then do we need to study welding in 1st year??

is'ny it idiotic that in a country of billions of people, and that too a country where education is considered very important, the principles are so hollow.

so basically the reason of existence is to make this change
so u would say very smart ...why don't you make this change?
i would do it yes...but not now...because right now my existence is like a small firecracker, i will be out too soon....i will wait and be big enough to be heard, considered, reviewed and understood.

one day i will overthrow this albetross hung around my neck.
and that is the day i can happily look for "mahaparinirvana"