Unstable ya Being Creative

Slowly i am getting more restless, even with small small things, i can see this pattern....my mind wanders like crazy, i've felt exactly like this before, that was during the first few months of college...

i hope it settles soon, but i really don't want to settle down like everyone else, as in i don't want to settle down as a compromising asshole, jo mujhe apne aas paas thousands ki tadaad mein dikhte hain...

i really don't know whats up with most of us, all of us have to become an accha aadmi after a period of time, as in daily shave karne waala, side partition wala, who get married and have kids and spends the rest of the life worrying about loans, relatives and other bullshit...

i really have no intention of becoming a shareef aadmi, i really want to keep things simple and minimised on the personal front so that i can do super creative things on a professional front.

but i am really terrified that this whole hava paani around me might change me into a sharmaji.

my mind is fucking tearing itself up.....i can have no peace.....

"यूं ही गुज़रे है ज़िन्दगी, जीते हैं कोई कोई ..." - Rona Chod Diya by Zeb and Haniya